2/20/19 - Lack of self-love can KILL you!!!
Updated: May 2, 2019
Explant Scheduled 3/11/19
Symptoms: SWAM (YAY!) but forced, exhausted, muscle pain more intense, joint pain (heat), puffy eyes/swollen face
What an incredible lesson I'm learning about how POWERFUL the lack of self-love and deep insecurities can be! I've always struggled with liking myself, lived with many personal demons that tear me down and often remind me I'm not worthy of love or acceptance. I know many others hear the same haunting voices throughout their lives, and most of us suffer more than we realize because of them. But I've been working on self-assurance and trying to GROW in this area of my life for years. I see an amazing therapist regularly, I practice 'self-love' meditation affirmations, I'm very heavy in my "TRY", and I've noticed progress. But BII has definitely humbled me and shown me I have a long way to go to really embrace and cherish my "ME". To think I would really be willing to give up the life I love, to stay in PAIN, to continue to SUFFER, just to avoid having to let go of a part of my body that offers that much security, to not understand that I am so much more than what I see on the outside, I am still a TODDLER on my personal growth journey. My eyes are OPEN and I see the message loud and clear (thank you GOD!)...it's time to get SERIOUS about accepting myself for the amazing person GOD created me to be! He doesn't make junk...and it's high time I start acting GRATEFUL for the gifts He has given me! Life lesson learned = WAKE UP, thank GOD for ALL, and CHOOSE LIFE!!
"Work on being in love with the person who is in the mirror who has been through so much but is still standing."