2/12/19 - Explant Reality = MELTDOWN!
Updated: May 1, 2019
Explant scheduled 3/11/19
Symptoms: Lethargy, body aches, nausea, no motivation, neuropathy after eating
My first surgeon consult and reality HITS! I know what I need to do, I know my body is rejecting these implants and my body is FAILING, I know it's the RIGHT thing, but letting go of a part of my body after 28 years is friggin HARD :( I've always wanted boobs, I like BOOBS. I'm so afraid of what the mirror will reflect...will I hate myself, viewing myself in utter disgust?!?! Had no idea I was this insecure and I have a lot of work to do on SELF LOVE. Another area of necessary GROWTH in my life. I think it's something we ALL need to work on, lifting each other UP, inlcuding OURSELVES and learning to define our worth based on how we live our lives, how we LOVE those around us, and how we make the world BETTER :)
"Beauty is what you feel about yourself not about what you see in the mirror."