3/7/19 - What if EXPLANT isn't my "ROCK"?!?!
Explant scheduled 3/11/19
Symptoms: lethargy, stomach/esophageal pain upon eating, constant body tension, dry eye/fluid
After years of trying to determine what the heck is going on with me, after turning over EVERY ROCK, and finally finding myself in the breast implant illness world, seeing my story over and over and OVER again, I want to believe this is my answer, that explant will provide HEALING...but what if it's NOT?!?! There is still some fear and anxiety in the reality that we won't really know until I get these toxins out of my body and we see what happens next. I know there is no other alternative, that we've investigated everything else and right now this is the next step in trying to get my health back but I can't help but be a little worried about what's to come. The unknown is so overwhelming but I know in my heart that this is where FAITH has to lead the way, that I have to trust God has lead me this far that and, no matter what, my future is in His hands ALWAYS. I feel the trust in my head but it's sometimes difficult to connect my faith to my heart. But, I guess like any other fear we must face, it's all about closing our eyes and making the choice to JUMP...right?!?! So here I go...taking the biggest LEAP OF FAITH in my life to date! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
"Faith is seeing light with your heart when your eyes see darkness."