3/4/19 - My body is not MY OWN!
Explant scheduled 3/11/19
Symptoms: overwhelming fatigue, no motivation, neuropathy (shocks, "body bugs", "needles in eyes", EMF sensitivity), food sensitivities, raynaud's flare-up after meals, intense brain fog (feel sedated!)
One of the most debilitating symptoms of this illness is the complete 'disconnect' that seems to happen with all the body systems. No matter how hard I try to pray and meditate to keep my anxiety levels at bay, and even though my thoughts aren't always leading me down the anxiety driven 'rabbit hole', my automonic and endocrine systems are so jacked up that they "THINK" I should be stressing ALL THE TIME! It's like living in a body that is not your own, frightening really. No matter how calm I might feel in any given situation, my body's reaction is still in "HELP...RUN!" mode because it's trying so desperately to break free from the toxic bags WITHIN it. It really makes sense when you think about it. The body is under constant THREAT no matter what is going on around me, the toxins remain and the body knows they are KILLING me. Breaks my heart, really :( As I write this, tears begin to flow thinking about how hard I've been on my body over the years and yet it stays loyal to me anyway, still trying to save me from myself. WOW, another incredible lesson in all of this, learning to show my body compassion and learning to be GRATEFUL for all that it has done and continues to do for me, allowing me to live a wonderful active life, doing all the FUN things I love. I will NEVER take my body for granted again...NEVER EVER!! God has blessed me yet again on this journey, to finally open my eyes, fully AWAKEN to what is important and how to treat my body right and truly enjoy a life of good health. What a BLESSING...double vision allowed me to finally SEE!!!!
"The universe has shaken you to awaken you."